life? a journey of challenges.

Life is a journey filled with obstacles . Sometimes i wonder why there must be so many obstacles in life. At times i question what God has planned for me. I wonder why he lets certain things happen and why it must happen at certain times. But God has been gracious. Yes, he has been. I remember my drama last term was such a challenge . Yeah it was a great challenge. And at that time i thoughtt, oh no Im gonna be dead, i dont think i can score this time round. But yet God does miraculous things. IN fact , i did well for drama because my teacher gave me extra marks for my work cos she recognised the effort i put in. These are the little things that God does in his own special way , which both you and i will never be able to comprehend. Everything happens in his own time. Yet, on a darker note. Certain things dont turn out as good as you had hoped it to be. Yes, the normal emotions of sadness, hopelessness and all. You wonder why God made it happen. No one knows but only God knows. Often , i have to constantly remind myself that God has perfect plans for me , that i must trust him. Sometimes i fear for what may come , i fear that things dont turn out the way i want it to. Yet, all these are beyond my control. Im uncertain abt what my future is. No one is anyway. I can only P.U.S.H. I can only pray until something happens that God will help me to achieve the things i want to and that he will guide and lead me in his way. I must change this fear into strength. I will just do my best and not try too hard. I know the consequences of trying too hard. The results are bitter. I will just do everything i can and hope for the best. This entry seems to be like im talking to myself. Maybe i am. Trying to remind myself and get myself on the right track. Yet, its also to share with you my inner thoughts . Im sure everyone has felt this way before. Unsure abt what lies ahead. But yet im sure there is a light at the end of a dark tunnel. Yes, im heading towards that light for i have faith that as long as i believe in the plans God has for me , i will be fine .